Chapter 45: If it helps, you can use me

My breathing only got heavier from there and I felt hot. Very hot inside, as if flames had been lit up underneath my skin, in my chest and... Down there too."This doesn’t seem good. I..." I looked at my body, slightly twitching and feeling funny. I’ve never felt like this before. Ever.

Is he sure he didn’t poison me by accident?

Why are the things with the snake always so different?

"Arinya, are you okay?" Fenric asked, as he finally closed the distance. He reached for me but Damar got on the defensive, hissing at him.

"I...I think I’m fine." I said. "I just... I can’t..." I looked up at him, my pupils going dull and filled with only one longing.

I needed a man’s touch.

Damar placed his hands on my shoulders and I felt their cooling effect. Yeah, just like that.

I wanted a man to touch me—

I quickly slapped my face, bringing my thoughts back to reality. What was going on in my head?

Was I already getting consumed? I’m bigger than this. I’m the boss, not the one to be bossed.

"You can’t just leave things as they are," Fenric growled at Damar. "She’s burning up."

"We can’t do anything about it," Damar said. "Ari doesn’t want to consummate yet, so we can only wait for it to die down."

Wait, so I have to bear like this for a while longer?

"How... How much longer?" I asked and Damar looked at me pitifully.

Then, he lifted me and slid towards the water.

"This should cool you off a little." He said but the water was only serving as an external cooler.

It did not help the fire burning inside me.

Fenric followed us inside the water. He was worried.

And as he watched my pants grow heavier, my body resting on Damar’s and my eyes slowly closing, he thought of the best thing for me at the moment.

"Arinya, you have to do it." He said and I opened my eyes.

What’s he saying?

Does he think sex is some kind of child’s play? I need to prepare my heart and body, and... Wait, I’m a beast, so my body doesn’t need preparation. Then it’s just my mind and heart.

I have to prepare them.

But it’s not like I’m not prepared either. How hard could it be, having sex? So long as Damar doesn’t plan to put both of his things inside at once, it should be fine, right?

"I’m worried," Fenric said. "What if you get sick like this?"

"She won’t get sick," Damar said, sounding confident. "It’ll only continue for an hour or so."

An HOUR?!

Are you trying to torture me?

"Still, I can’t watch her like this," Fenric said, his hand pressed on his chest in desperation. "Arinya, go ahead and use me." He said and I peeked at him.

Say what?

"If it helps, you can use me." He said but this made Damar glare at him.

He wrapped his arms around me more protectively and said,

"If anyone’s going to help Ari, it’s me."

"But you’re not even making an effort to help her." He said and Damar lowered his head silently.

"It’s because Ari doesn’t want it." He said. "If she doesn’t want it, I can’t do it."

He sounds so sweet right now and so considerate.


I think it’s time to stop being stubborn.

They are practically my husbands, so I shouldn’t try keeping celibacy when I’m burning with a fever right now.

"It... It’s alright." I spoke up and they both looked down at me. "I think we can do it, ngh. It’s so hot. Down there and..." I pressed my hand on my chest. "Here... It’s so hot. So, help me cool it down... Please."

I was literally begging for it at this point. And what seemed to be an opportunity for them, became quite a challenge.

I watched the movement of their Adam’s apple as they gulped, perceiving the invitation as it was.

"Are you sure, Ari?" Damar asked and I nodded.

"Y-yeah. Just... One at a time." I managed to smile but I was worried and anxious.

Still, all that worry and anxiety found a way to fly out as my desperation grew and the flames grew even hotter.

"Then," Fenric blushed and then placed his hand on my chest. Damar did not object. Rather, he observed.

I don’t know what he was planning to do, if he wanted to watch the process and learn how to be ’gentle’ but he merely observed, while holding me firmly in the water.

Fenric grabbed both of my breasts, and I bit my bottom lip.

His hands were cool against my hot body, and then he began to squeeze.

"Ahh,"

"Sorry. Did that hurt?"

"No, it..." I shook my head. "You’re just slow. Just... Do it already."

He gulped once again and finally decided to man up.

He pressed his lips on my left breast and began to suck on it.

The ripples around us were silent, but it was enough of a distraction for me, who was feeling rushed.

"Do you like it?" Fenric asked and I nodded.

"Yeah. It feels good." I could barely keep my head clear at this point. I wanted to feel even better.

I wanted them to make me feel good and quench this heat.

"There... There’s one more place to make me feel good." I said, my legs swirling lightly in the water.

I took his hand and then brought it down till his index finger touched my clit and my entire body reverberated.

"Haahh," I let out a moan, as if fire spread through my body and grabbed Damar’s hand with my other hand. "Yeah... There. Touch me there, Fenric."

Fenric, who was new to this, could also feel himself getting lost in the heat.

He didn’t just touch my clit but circled around my entrance, his fingers instinctively sliding inside.

I nearly gasped, my eyes widening as I felt him pass through a layer with both fingers.

It was tight. I could literally feel myself wrapped around him and throbbing, as if I didn’t want him to go past that spot.

"Are you scared?" Fenric asked and I nodded, not even hiding the fact.

Virgin in both lives, of course I’ll be scared.

"Don’t worry," he leaned closer, whispering into my ear seductively. Where did he get the courage from, I wonder. "I won’t harm you."

I’ll take his word for it this time.