190: Chapter 190 Why

Qin Lin stepped out of the Drivers Cabin and said to everyone:

“The Eternal Night has passed. We can continue our journey. Everyone, get ready; we set off in half an hour.”

Everyone began to move into action.

Su Yuling stood by the window, looking at the light outside.

Fifteen days.

She had been able to hug Brother Lin once every day.

Every day, she could smell his scent and feel his warmth.

These fifteen days had been the happiest fifteen days of her life.

But now, it was time to set off again.

She would have to continue facing those 'competitors.'

She turned her head and looked at the busy crowd in the living room.

Han Yurou, Li Ying, Zhou Yueyue, Zhou Lingling...

Each one was so beautiful and so proactive.

They all liked Brother Lin.

They all wanted to have him.

Su Yuling bit her lip.

It didn't matter.

She could wait.

Regardless, Brother Lin was hers.

He would be hers sooner or later.

She lowered her head, a faint, barely perceptible smile playing at the corners of her mouth.

That smile was different from her usual one.

Su Yuran happened to catch this scene, and her heart stirred.

That smile...

It was quite interesting.

She smiled slightly and said nothing.

...

The RV continued forward, and night soon fell.

Su Yuling watched as Qin Lin finally finished talking to Li Ying, and Li Ying left with a smile.

Qin Lin stood up, preparing to return to his bedroom.

Her gaze followed him the entire time.

Until he disappeared at the end of the hallway.

She lowered her head and looked at her hands.

Those hands had been clenched so tightly just now that her nails were nearly digging into her flesh.

She relaxed her grip and looked at the red marks on her palms.

“What's... wrong with me?”

She asked herself.

But no one answered.

The sunlight from outside filtered through the protective shield, falling upon her.

It was very warm.

But her heart felt somewhat cold.

And also somewhat hot.

The coldness came from knowing Qin Lin didn't belong to her alone.

The heat came from her growing desire to make him belong only to her.

These two feelings intertwined, making her both pained and excited.

She didn't know what this meant.

But she knew she could no longer go back.

From the moment Qin Lin first held her in the Drivers Cabin, she could no longer go back.

She stood up and walked toward Bedroom No. 001.

As she passed Bedroom No. 000, she paused for a moment.

The door was closed.

Qin Lin was inside.

She reached out, wanting to knock.

But then she pulled back.

Not now.

It wasn't time yet.

She bit her lip and continued walking forward.

Just as she reached 001 and was about to enter, she suddenly looked toward Room 005.

The door to 005 was open, and Zhou Yueyue's voice could be heard faintly from inside.

She couldn't control herself and walked toward Bedroom 005.

“...So I think we should still go together...”

Su Yuling froze for a moment.

Together?

Go where?

She slowed her pace and listened intently.

Zhou Lingling's voice said:

“That works too. Together.”

Zhou Yueyue: “Then when should we go?”

Zhou Lingling: “Let's wait a bit longer for the right opportunity.”

Su Yuling stood at the door, and after hearing a few sentences, she suddenly understood.

They were talking about... going to Qin Lin's room.

Together.

That sour, bitter feeling welled up in her heart again.

On what grounds?

Why did they get to go together?

Why could they discuss such things so easily?

While she didn't even dare to knock on the door.

She quickly walked past 005 and returned to Bedroom No. 001.

Closing the door, she leaned against it, panting heavily.

The conversation of The Zhou Sisters echoed continuously in her mind.

Go together... go together... go together...

She clenched her fists.

No.

She couldn't let them beat her to it.

She had to go too.

She also wanted to...

But, she didn't dare.

That contradictory feeling was almost tearing her apart.

“Sister!”

She greeted Su Yuran on the bed, then collapsed onto the mattress, burying her face in the pillow.

“What should I do...”

Su Yuran was leaning against the headboard, watching her younger sister.

She had noticed from the moment Su Yuling entered the room.

She noticed her red-rimmed eyes, her clenched fists, and the sense of powerlessness as she collapsed onto the bed.

Han Qing's words echoed in her mind.

“yandere...”

She looked at her sister, the corners of her mouth slowly curling into an arc.

A yandere sister.

How interesting.

...

The night grew deep.

The RV moved quietly through the darkness; outside was the rare starlight following the Eternal Night.

Although it was still over 60 degrees Celsius outside, the constant 24°C temperature inside the vehicle made that scorching heat completely unfelt.

In Bedroom No. 001, Su Yuling lay on the bed, eyes wide open, staring at the ceiling.

She couldn't sleep.

She had been lying like this for three hours.

From ten at night until one in the morning, her eyes hadn't closed once.

The conversation she had overheard played repeatedly in her mind.

It was the sound coming from Bedroom 005 as she passed by; the door hadn't been fully closed.

She hadn't intended to eavesdrop, but those words had made her stop in her tracks.

“Sister, say... if we're going to do *that*, should one person go, or both of us together?”

Zhou Yueyue's voice carried the shyness unique to a young girl, yet it was also full of curiosity.

Together.

They were going to find Brother Lin together.

Together.

Su Yuling lay on the bed, rolled over, and faced the wall.

The image automatically surfaced in her mind:

Zhou Yueyue, wearing that pink lolita outfit with its fluffy skirt and white over-the-knee socks, a shy smile on her face, slowly walking into Bedroom No. 000.

Zhou Lingling, wearing the blue set, following behind—same outfit, same expression.

The two of them standing together before Qin Lin.

Together...

Su Yuling opened her eyes.

Together.

They were going to find Brother Lin together.

Together.

She bit her lip.

How long had The Zhou Sisters been here? Half a month? Twenty days?

What right did they have?

Why could they go find Brother Lin together?

Why could they discuss 'who goes first and who goes second'?

Why could they so naturally plan to... with him?

She didn't dare think further.

But once that thought appeared, it could no longer be suppressed.

She tossed and turned again and again.

The bedsheets were crumpled by her grip, her nails nearly piercing the fabric.

The images in her mind kept shifting:

Zhou Yueyue in the pink lolita outfit.

Zhou Lingling in the blue lolita outfit.

Lying together...

Together...

Su Yuling sat up abruptly, panting for breath.

In the darkness, she stared at a single point in the void, her chest heaving violently.

It wasn't fear.

It wasn't anger.

It was a sort of... indefinable thing that was coalescing.

She lowered her head and covered her face with both hands.

Her fingers were icy cold against her burning cheeks.

Why?

Why could others easily do the things she didn't dare to do?

Why did she have to hesitate at the door for ages every day before gathering the courage to knock, while they could directly discuss 'going together'?

Why did she only dare to take on hugging missions, while they were already planning to take things further...

It wasn't fair.

It was so unfair.

She took a deep breath and slowly exhaled.

The darkness surrounded her like a warm cocoon.

In the darkness, something began to loosen.